Wednesday, December 23, 2009
to drink or not to drink...
James and I both grew up in this denomination, but we took very different paths in life. He took the path of alcohol and spent years in bars. I, on the other hand, have tasted alcohol a total of 6 times and have not enjoyed one drop. It tastes like cough medicine. I think it goes without saying that my husband no longer drinks*, but I said it anyway. We talk of this often in light of the fact that so many friends and family members drink on occasion. And some, like those buddy's he used to drink with, consume alcohol much more than occasionally. Here is an article he found recently that makes some good points.
I guess if you want to drink, no amount of logic/reasoning/arm-twisting is going to convince you to do otherwise. This does not mean I love you any less or that I think God loves you any less. That's for Him to decide. And, besides, I'm not posting this to convince you that my opinion is right or that you should change. It's simply for the sake of discussion and thought.
*the drinking that i am referring to is the consumption of alcohol, lest you believe that my husband is significantly dehydrated.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
i miss us too.
Ok, nevermind. you convinced me. i'm awake anyway.Friday, November 6, 2009
my first blessing is 3
My sweet Boogie, you bring joy to my life daily and I thank God for you. Thank you for your sweetness and your love of life. My prayer is that I will be the mommy that you need and you would grow into a beautiful, independent daughter of the King. I love you THIS MUCH!!!!!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I made this:
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Things I plan to do to keep my family healthy.
These things may seem like common sense to a lot of people, but this mommy things doesn't come easy to me. On the other hand, I'm a nurse by profession and SHOULD know these things already. Well, I'm kindof a slow learner and I've been focused on being a mom, so the nurse in me is off duty. And that's a good thing, b/c when she does come around she starts freaking out about all the sickness and such. Seriously...she's not welcome here very often.
So....here's my list:
Sleep: I plan to get the girls in bed at a reasonable time every night and down for naps every day.
activities: When we are out, we will try to get back to the house to get good sleep instead of returning at 8 or 9pm and then putting them down for bed late. (see "sleep").
eating: I plan to make healthy meals every night (except maybe one) instead of eating out. This will require planning and some good recipes, but I have a new oven that I am loving so maybe I'll cook more often.
Vitamins: I bought vitamins for the girls to eat. We'll see. I don't have a lot of faith in things like that, but I should b/c I'm a nurse. sheesh!
Cleanliness: I plan to bath my girls more often. haha...that sounds funny. Their hair takes so long to dry, but that needs to be something I learn to deal with. I also plan to clean my house more often and better. I'm not much of a cleaner. My house is not gross, but it's certainly not disinfected regularly like it should be. I will also require them to wash their hands WAY more often, even when just around the house and we will use hand sanitizer when out of the house.
fresh air: since I don't plan to go places much, I will allow the girls time outside regularly. This will be difficult if James doesn't have the time to take them out b/c I can't take Miriam out, but I will allow them to put on coats and boots and run around the porch for 15 minutes.
Laughter: Since this is the best medicine, I plan to tickle my girls and wrestle with them on a regular basis. They are craving one on one time with me, especially in these past few months with Miriam requiring so much of my attention and James' schedule being so screwed up. I will give that to them daily.
Prayer: I will pray that the Great Healer will keep us all away from sickness and protect my little ones when they do get sick, b/c, let's face it....it will happen and I just need to be prepared for it.
I will do these things b/c I love them. I mean, really, who couldn't love these faces?!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Evenings are rough.
My girls are healthy. Lydia's nose is still a bit runny, but not constantly.
Miriam is sleeping most of the night. She goes to sleep around 9:30pm and wakes b/w 4 and 5 am then back to sleep until 8 or 9 which gives me some time with the big girls in the morning. I'm also figuring out her daytime schedule and today got a 3 1/2 hour nap while the older girls slept for 2 hours.
2 jobs were posted that James has requested. One is M-F Days at Headquarters. The other is M-F Days at the Diesel Plant. We heard about the job at headquarters a month ago and I have been praying specifically for that job since. Please pray with me.
The girls seem to be noticing James NOT being home at times he USED to be home. They miss him. I miss consistency. We need a change.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
a new life
day, day, eve, off, off, night, night, night, night, day, eve, eve, off, off, off, off, night, day, day, eve, eve, eve, eve, off, night, night, day, day, day, day....and repeat ad nauseum.
He is checking the Corning job postings daily and has been informed of 2 positions that should be posted soon. Please pray with me that he gets the M-F Day job at headquarters by the end of the year. I am praying specifically for this. We have not b/c we ask not, right?
Until that happens, I am trying to step up and make the most of this schedule. It's currently very difficult since all 3 girls and myself are sick. Sleep is necessary in my life for me to stay healthy and 8 hours straight doesn't happen with a 2 months old (although she sleeps from 9:30 pm until 5 am most nights).
Speaking of sleep...Miriam seems to be sleeping now so I need to get to bed.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Wondering....
(And if I had more time or energy I might elaborate on that.)
Friday, October 2, 2009
recent happenings..
---James started back to work at a new location (tonight is his first night shift. Pray for us.)
---Miriam smiled. It's so sweet when that happens. It's a bit of a reward for my work.
---Lydia peed in the potty...after telling me (in her own special way since she doesn't talk much) that she needed to pee.
---I got a new vacuum. my old one just want cutting it and I LOVE to vacuum.
---A deer ran into my little green Sentra that James drives daily. (no, he did not hit the deer...the deer actually ran into the side of the car.)
---Lydia chewed through her paci so we took it away since it was a serious choking hazard. She's been struggling the past few naps/bedtimes. She's got a strong set of lungs.
---Miriam has her first cold. She's miserable. I'm miserable. and, as they say, when Mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy!!! ugh!!
---MOPS started for the year.
---I'm in a friday morning Bible Study (child care provided...Praise the LORD!!!) and I love it.
---James is part of a leadership Bible Study at one of our Pastors' homes one tuesday a month.
---My friend Kiley came to visit with her 4 kids. We were friends our freshman year of college at Houghton, but lost contact when I left. Thanks to Facebook we have a friendship again and it was so nice to sit and visit with her.
I like it when things happen, but the illness and the temper tantrums I can do without. oh, and the deer. :)
Sunday, September 13, 2009
what kind of mom are you?
"I have this theory. There are three kinds of women. There's the woman who has always known (like, from birth) that she has wanted to be a mother, and she is fantastic at it, thriving in this role. (In fact, for her, it's not a role; it is who she is to the core.) On the other end of the spectrum is the woman who (also, almost from birth) has always known that she did NOT want to be a mother, and she finds her womanly fulfillment in a myriad of other ways throughout her life. Then there's the other one in the middle somewhere, the one who wants to be a mom but is the kind that does not automatically love all children. (She loves hers completely and cares infinitely for the children of her friends and extended family, but that's about the extent of it.) For her, mothering is amazing but isn't necessarily the defining factor in her life. I have always candidly believed I have fallen into the middle category. I love my kids, but this mothering thing sort of rubs me the wrong way sometimes. Requiring much more selflessness than I ever would have guessed and much more than I seem to have at my disposal to dole out. I have these longings--to do so much more, to be so much more--a longing to still be the one being taken care of, instead of the consummate caregiver."
I am the middle mom. I love my girls, but some days I long for freedom. I look forward to them growing up. I don't let my babies sleep with me. I encourage my kids to walk as early as possible (Catie took steps at 9 1/2 months. Lydia, at 10 1/2 months). I wasn't sad when Catie moved into her toddler bed. I imagine that I might have tears in my eyes when they each go off to school, but I'll also know that it's a step in the inevidable direction. I wonder what sports they will play and who their friends will be. I look forward to seeing who they become as young women in college and what career choice they make. I envision what their wedding invitations might look like and what it will be like to see each of them stand up as maids-of-honor at each others weddings. I don't think this makes me a bad mom as long as I also pay attention to the moments of these young days. If you are the first kind of mom, you may understand me as little as I understand you.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Welcome Fall
My only argument with fall is that it bring memories with it. And not all those memories are good. This year it will have been 8 years since Andrew's death and I still dread that part of fall. September 30 was his birthday. October 22nd was the day of his surgery. November 2 is the day printed on his death certificate. I chose to greive well when he died. I decided that if I had to go through it I was going to do it right. I didn't want any lingering emotions bottled up inside for years to come. I wanted to get it ALL out. That is still true. When I enter into the fall season I have to face that grief again every year, and I'm still choosing to do it well.
A friend posted this recently and I think she phrases it well: "be overtaken by pain". That's the only way to get to the other side. Grief isn't a nice little stream to cross while pulling up your pantlegs. You can't just tiptoe your way through and expect to survive. It's a raging river that runs so deep your head can't stay above. The only way to get to the other side is to be overtaken. Let the river run over you and take you where it wants to go. The end results will always be worth the near drowning. It's got to be better than feeling like you're drowning for the rest of your life. I thank God that He gave me the strength to be overtaken. Which, I think, is another important point. It can't be done without God. Trusting Him to join you in the river, to be the Breath of Life when you can't catch yours. He knows the river. He created it. He can get you through safely and help you get established on the other side.
At times like this, when I am forced to remember that horrible time, I have to remind myself to continue to trust and grieve well. I'm not afraid to talk about Andrew or to remember him. Sometimes I dig out pictures and just sit and think about who he was and remind myself that it's ok to miss him. He was my best friend for years. And on the other side of that grief and those memories are blessings "beyond all we could ask or imagine". I have 4 that live and breath, but SOOOO many more that are not tangible. I have been blessed.
So, Welcome Fall!!! Bring on the goodness and bring on the painful memories b/c I'm trusting God with my pain and my blessings.
Friday, August 28, 2009
What's in a name?
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
the birth story.
There are a lot more pictures on FB....check those out as well, if you haven't already.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
a little less annoyed, but I'm hoping I'm still irritable
I would appreciate your prayers that the Lord would simply put me into labor naturally over the course of the next 12+ hours. If that doesn't happen, I would like the Cervidil to stimulate labor without needing Pitocin. Wouldn't that be absolutely wonderful?! I feel as though my body is ready...ha...you might disagree since it is not IN labor currently, but I'm trying not to care. :) It seems that when I hear an opinion that is against induction, my peace is stolen and I start to second guess our decision. I don't need to be doing that. I need to make a decision and go with it until the Lord, Himself, removes the peace without help from others.
So that's my story. I have yet to decide if I will post anything on facebook about the induction specifically. I might just let it happen and then post afterward. Who knows....
Thank you for your prayers and your support. I'll keep you posted.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
annoyed and irritable
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Monday, August 3, 2009
Leaving on a jet plane
Our pilot is also an instructor and allowed James to fly for about 15 minutes. He taught him some things about the rutters which made the plane tip/turn/etc. And remember that nausea? yep, it was still present and persistent. And about the time James was flying I threw up. I'm fairly sure it had nothing to do with his flying since the nausea was with me for the entire flight. I was glad that it went away a bit after throwing up, but I still didn't feel well for most of the day.
The pilot allowed me to get proof that James was doing the flying....
Another highlight of the flight was seeing the Watkins Glen International Raceway from the air. Last year we went to the track for the NASCAR race in August. It only takes about 20 minutes to get there from our house, and I drive by it whenever I go to my sister's, but seeing it from this angle was just so cool.
Catie did pretty good. It was nice to be needed by her when it really counted. So often she goes to daddy and I feel useless, but she really wanted to snuggle with me for the whole flight.
I'm glad we had the opportunity to do this. I highly recommend seeing your home area from a different perspective....just don't do it if you're pregnant.
Friday, July 31, 2009
printing a retraction:
a month in a nutshell
We've done more than this, though. There was a trip to the Yates County Fair, time spent with Mima and Papa and Grandma and Grandpa. We've had friends visit and we've gone to visit friends as well. It's been very busy, but noone seems to be complaining.
On top of all of our outings and activities, I have tried to prepare for this baby a little. I finally got the clothes, carseat and swing down from the attic. I've done a lot of cleaning around the house including removing screens and washing windows...inside and out. I just wish this little one would show her face before my doctor goes on vacation ON MY DUE DATE!!
i'm one smart cookie!!!
More blogs to come...really...I haven't forgotten about you.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Monday, June 22, 2009
LONG overdue...sorry Jodi :)
Lydia could've spent the entire day by the aquariums. I think I need to find a real aquarium to visit with the girls sometime. Anyone know of a good one?
Naomi's mom, Jenelle, and I grew up going to the same camp, then ended up at the same college. We hope our girls will get to grow up together at Chambers Camp as well.
Friday, June 12, 2009
call it whatever you want cause i can't think of a title.
Lydia doesn't often get to take baths by herself, but on this rare occasion James took Catie to Home Depot with him and Lydia got to play by herself in the water. Well.....sortof by herself. Jericho loves to eat the bubbles so Lati spent the majority of her time alone just "feeding" him.
Another rare occasion: the girls snuggling and eating ice chips while watching a movie.
Bluebirds are not so rare around our house. I LOVE them. We have both males and females so hopefully they will multiply. Speaking of multiplying....our deer seem to have multiplied as well. This has got to be one of the 2009 babies born in our woods. I will never tire of seeing things like this.